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        T H E \
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L T c 6 \
from \
OUR A \
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(Collective Specifics) \
an im partial bibliography \
INCIDENTS IN A NON-RELATIONSHIP or: how I came to not know who is \
o ,. L A N G u \
G E \
@ \
1977 \
Chased Pre.ss : : : : : : : : :: Any resemblance to persons \
to persons living or dead is purely coincidental. \
All rights reserved : No portion of this book may be reproduced \
in any form or by any means whatsoever without written consent. \
A p p R o c H \
FOR My B-'REDS OF LEDDERS \
with grateful acknowledgment to the individuals for their continuing encouragement, kind assistance, \
worthwhile criticism, & endless patience in the preparation of this manuscript. \
IF THE~E HAD BEE" ANY OTHE~ POSSIBILiTY, DiFFE~ENT CONSEQVEl\\'CES \'95 \
bVT: I PA~fiCiPaTJON is NecessARiLY ELimiNATiVE, & 2 WHO GiVES A FVCKil\\G SHiT \
ANYWAy? I J~EAN, JEEZ, WHY bOTHER TO GO THROVGh aLL ThaT ShiT? 3 'CEpT if !T's \
GO!n' TO MakE yOV aCTVaLLY FEEL REal GOOD 4 ThaT's ThE Diff!cVIT PART MOre \
AND ,~OrE, Of cOUrSE. 5 UnlESs IT's IIEVEr EVEN bEEN An ISSE, OF COURSE In \
WhICh cAsE ThE QUESTION nEVER cA tiE UP, AnD IF AND WHEN IT DID ITWAS \
DEALT WITH THROUGH THE CORRECT CHANNELS. 6 IF ONLY IT COULD 7 BY \
CONSIDERATE AND KNOWLEDGEABLE AND DIRECT INTENTION. 8 WHICH I HAVE \
HAD TO BUST MY ASS TO EVEN BE ALLOWED TO HAVE A CHANCE AT TRYING IT \
OUT JUST EV'\'a3NTO GET ENOUGH OUT FROM UNDER TO COME TO THE REALIZATION \
OF THA T NEED, THAT RIGHT; 9 WHICH IS DIVINED AND MADE CLEAR THROUGH \
MEANS OF OTHER CONTACT; THE WORDS APPLAR AND SO ARE REAVEALED IN \
ALL THEIR FLAMING GLORY. 10 THE CONCEPTION WHICH INITIATES THE ACTIvIty \
COMPRISES AN JNltlAL DEFINItION OF tHE PARAMEtERS OF tHE WORK: II WHICH \
IS VER Y REALLY SO AWFULLY AWFULLY MUCH OF WHAt IS tRULY VERY VALUA. \
BLE AND fHAt'S FOR EVERYONE; 12 At LEASt HAt'S SOMethinG to ReALLY WORK on \
AS FAR AS It'S POSSIBLe to JUETIFY SUCh CONFUSION IN PeRSONAL TeRMS,. 13 IF \
NOThING eLSe AT ALL eVeR MANAGeS ITS MUMBLeD WAY INTO ThIS SILLY JUMBLe, \
AT LeASl 'lheRe WAS ThIS BIT OF sReTTY SOLID STUFF TO LOOK BACK ON WITh FOND. \
NeSS. 14 KeeP GOiNG,. JUST KelP ON KeePiN' ON WiThOUT ANY KiND OF QUeSTiON,. \
CAUSe DOiNG iSoF~aJ.iMUMeFFeCTiVeNeSS WhY WaSTe oUT oN USeLeSS TRnSh? \
15 ShOULD Be a MoVe in The WaY of CoMPLeTe SaTiSFACToRY PeaCe of MiND aND The \
KNoWLeDGe of how To Be iN The Now MoMeNT. 16 So, hoNeY, KeeP CooL aND STaY wiTh \
it, cLwaYS iN the FLow, aNd RiDE oN ThE CRESt of that RUShinG waVE--EXUBERaNt PLEa- \
PLEaSuRe what OouLD Be MoRE FaNtaStiC? 17 no SuBStitutE FoR GooD hArd, hEAVy woRK: \
NoR FoR REwARdS whiCh iSSuE fRoM SuCh EffoRT; 18 As loNG As/ThE METhod pRoCEEdS \
wiTh ToTAlly CoNsciOus REs ONsiBiliTY fOR The QuAliTaTiVE nATuRE Of ThE parTCulARs \
ofiTs bEVEIOpM~ NT ANd ThE REaliZaTiON T aT TH~ACTiViTY is sYNCHROnOuS wiTH THE \
fORM, NECCt;ssARilY. 19 BuTiTHAs TO inTEGRATE, MAn,liKEifyOuCAN'TM KEiTAll \
fAll iN plACE And HOld TOGETHER iT JusTdON'TMAKEfT; iT's siMply GOT TO HAvE cOHER. \
ENcE TO REAlly GET THE iMAGE TO cOMMunicATE 20 But wHO GiVEs A flying lucK -L VEry- \
BOdy is Jus T TRying TO GiT ThEiR ROcKs Off whA TEVER wAy THEy cAn, As OftEn As pOSsiBlE \
- n illusiOn 'BOuT THAT 21 By AGGRessive cOnsumpTiOn of THe eXperience diGesTiOn is \
mAbe TO haPpen, wOw! 22 and because i wan T TO be aBle TO rememB r The really inTense mo- \
n,enTs (;\'a3my lIfeIwanTTOwrlT aBOut Them as !nTImaTelyas my aBIlITy allOws. 23 wIThOUt \
wanTinG UndUE EMpMasls appearIng TO BE placEd On valuE Of rEfErencE I wIll alsO rEfUse \
any IdEr unlEss Is inCludEd somE InclU \
si v \
E EXpansIOn Of vOcaBuLeRy. 24 concErn fOR ad. \
vancE Of pOWEr usEd fOr prOGrEss Of hUman ThOuGht EvOLVEs frOm sEIZInG OpportunE \
mOmEnts tf knOWIng ApplicAbLE UsE 25 EspEcIALL7 UsEasinFErrEdinmAnIpULATIon, \
and UnIVErsAL sUcH A PrAcTicE,myfrEnd. 26 onLY mAkE AccESIBLEELEmEnSOfmYtH \
fOr PUBlIc EXPOSUrE cA USE fInAUY WHOEVEr cAn, WILL. \
DEADO'CAKESHUM \
A v o o \
A N c E \
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L A R y \
TABLE OF CONTENTS ... \
IN TRO D U \
CTI 0 N: Arecollectivesummaryofthehistoryandtraditionsofpersonalvoice \
IT 8 E GIN S: assumptionsbasedonromanticscrapsojintriguir,~gandalluringnonknowledge \
A so MEl NT E NTI 0 N \
S: spontaneous;Boston;Radclffe;twobooks&stillgoingvrystrong \
A READ IN G: pretensedevelopedthroughasser'-iveneedtomakeademonstrationofautonomy \
B OKAY OKA Y: chugwastedLAhighschooldropout'earlypublishingsuccessinNY \
OUT DRI N KI N G: ignoranceast;emeanstoestablishathreshholdjordevelopingapOwer \
C MY BIG MAC; swaggerfromtheMidwesthashismastersdegreeofcourreplumber \
N OTH I N G M 0 R E: smokescreendenialasdejledtionojsomeactuallyveryacuteinteretinit \
D TRUMP; cleverfromCanadahasservlcebacegroundBSanbprintlDllfamily \
HOT PER FOR MAN C E: latencyobservm'vedinaconcentratedtightlyjocusedattention \
E THIS IS OF: privilegedYalelvyleaguealIThewayThEbEsTofcoDnEcTions \
I NT ERE S T: egocentricityesteemedasdejinitepersonalvirtueseemstocOnjerrealvalidatOn \
F WOMAN WHO LIKED; isO/aTEdMFAfrOmsTaTEjustgeTT/ngpublishEd \
C R U S H; cOntrivanceasdiversiOntOhOpejullyeliminatepervasivecOntinuingsexualennui \
G & PLANE FACED ouTThEreBakErsfiEldMFAdOEsarTadm/aisTraTiOIl \
DR EA M S; sublimatiOnaNdthedensejaNtasyOjwhatactualiNteractiOncONsistsOjmaybe \
H A REASON WHY' selfindulgentNYcOllegedrOpOuthipJJieoOesmimeOstuff \
AN ACT; establishiNgc6ntactthrOughveryremOvedcndveyydistantelusivearbitrarymeaNs \
I HYMN TO HER: mysticfromDetrOitBAaslavishpoeTgroupiesTucliesmagic \
I NTERACTI 0 N: COy ess,cOmiNginquickfOmtheOuTfieldTOmakesOm~kindOfaplay \
J INVENT: upTighTiPAloAITo:MATEAcHES;wl(iTeS~cAdemicCriTicism \
EXC ITEM ENT: cOndesciOnaNdtheraTiOnaliziOgAwayOFTheaLreaDyQuiTeObviOuS \
K HEARTSONG: senTimenTa/:NYinOTmuch:hungoutearlywiThBiggiEs \
o B S ES S ION: illusiONTOcOmpleTeEqclusiONOFrEaliTyiNsElEcTiVEmOdESOfsighT \
L MA Y8E: wEllbeH AVed:BoStQu;MFA,STI AigHTTHru:OnEdEEPBOOK \
CUR IDS ITY: inTrusiOn;PROxyinTimAcygAinEdbyavib&vERyREchERChEGOSSIP \
M RED SAIL: romaaTic:EaSTcoaST,lIbEl(alArTsionELETTEl(plEssbook \
ANTI C I PA \
TI 0 N: FalsEprEmj'sEandThEExTEriOrmEThOdOFmakinGJDEnTificaTiJn \
N MAN DEEP IN LIGHT: cIASs/CAI:sChOOIEdlnEngIAnd:tEaChEs,IOTs \
FLI RT \
A TID N; absurdiTy, ThEmOsTapparEnTaccEssisThEOnEwOrKEdawaYOn&aT \
o AWASH: FLAmbOyADT.Al(lzOnAdI(OPOUThIPPIETyPE:mAGAzIDEs \
I NTEN S ITY; misrEadingOriTcOulddbEanacTua:andvErifiablErEalhiT;thEmOmENT \
P DO wHAT DID HE, sElfsATlsfiEdiIA'AqvErTlslng:dEsIgnEr;pAmpLeT \
Ex P E CT \
A TID N; vaniTyThEclJudspacEOfTryingTOjusTifymuchOFThESTRaiN \
Q HARD, DOWN: humAnistiC:froMNOI(ThCArOLiNA;UC:smALlbigTiME \
HOLD IN G BAC K! pErsisTEncEThEpOSiTivEcOnsidEraTiOnOfallThEnOmEnOn \
R ON & ON: dOCTriNAirE;BOsTON,PriNCETON;dOEsAsmALlmAGAziNE \
S C HEM E S\'b7 cOnfusiONaNdThEcarryiugThsOughOfaNTicipaTEdalTErNaTivEpLaN \
S GOING 'OUT: irrEspONsibLE:N.J.,sTATEsCeOOLs,MFA,Of"EcrECiousbk \
o PpO RTU N ITITY; NONcHaLaNcE,MAiNTaiNscONTrOlOFENTirESiTuaTiON \
T SUMMARILY; fuNCTIONAL:uPstATENEwyOl(k:U.C.:muChpubLIShED \
CON VE R S AT ION: bliNd:JEsirEwiThpREcipiTOusChEmicALTypEBONDiNg \
U YOU'RE GONNA LIKE MUCH MORE: TENsE:IOwA:hsTEAcher:MAG \
MUTUAL AWARENESS: TENSiONiNthETighTENiNg,shriNkcONfiguraTiON \
V LIST of STuFFINGS\'b7 GREEdy:fROmpEalnsuLA:BA:TwOchApBOOKS \
AT LAST: submiss1:0NTOiNTENSEaNimAlmRGNETiSmOFENThrALLilvgDANcE \
W ONE OF THE 8IGGIES: prETEnTIOus:ChICAGO;FuckEdAbIgGyEArly \
R I DE HOM E: AggrEsssONfrOMwi~dDElighTcrERTEdiNpArTbYiNTOxicATION \
X FLASH: eONCEITEd,FrOmNEwArk;statESCnOOLS;LOTSANdANEwoNE \
IN TH E DAR K: cONfrONTEn WiThThEMagiCAlMOMENTOfGrEATOPPORTONiTY \
Y DAMN PRICKS: RESENTfUL,SEATtLE;STATEUNlv.TEAChES;IBOOk \
RES 0 LUTI 0 N: williNqANdrEAdYThENighT&ThEsTRrsRNdThEmusic&YOU \
Z I. E. EGOcENTrIc,cONCOrD,MA, YALE:bOOKBUSINESS,lOTs8crEcENT \
a R R E N \
" \
INTRODUCTION \
How can you even presume to without \
knowing the traditions.l? \'a7 \
I'm not clever enough, not quick. \
anyway, that stuff doesn't last. \
It's the vision that matters, the \
the real and worked-out clarity \
of \
vis \
ion. That's my work. The \
educatio1J, was the first substan- \
tial investment. I have a serious \
interest in the synthetic integra- \
of thought; Ivalue the sensitiVe \
experiences of \
perception . . . \
and lo Ve. The energy runs thru \
eVerything when it's going, I go \
with it, making the mo Yes ac. \
cording to the opportunities. Got \
to learn to trust the intuiti Ve as- \
pect of the of \
the organisim: to \
function through the totality of \
the being. From where my per- \
sonal space is at that necessarily \
includes public forms of expres- \
sion. Values. Exchange, lo Ve \
again: need to maintain that in- \
terest, that primitiVe driVe. a \
completely forthright moti Va- \
tion Am I wOrking thrOugh my \
need to hOld On to what becOmes \
established? DO I cOnsider that a \
part o.fthewOrk-Orjust the at- \
tachment which generates the \
conditiOning sentimental cOnsi- \
deratiOn? Om what le Vel the \
permissiOm? TO what emd? FOr \
the actual purpOse Of deliberate \
cOmstrucTi Ve ThOughT. MiNe. \
s E E K N G p E \
The poetry of the period, as best exemplified by A, \
has an impressive complexity which can be traced to \
varbus contemporary influences. It's tone was spawned \
in the breach between the rigid framework of Q's blunt \
humanism and E's procedural formalism. P's contempt \
of strict, traditional dogma, which was an affrontry to E \
and more particularly to J, who felt that P should not \
ignore their obvious importance, had begun the task of \
filling out that gap. While the emergence of D foresha- \
dowed the domination of synthetic construction in the \
vehicle of a robust style which assured Its authority, J \
felt herself urged by a fresh spirit of rivalry to draw on \
the formal methods of T. Doubtless more effective \
means were brought into play by J, who was inclined \
to a S9vere distillation in her editorializing. In such an \
atmosphere, Q, respected though he was, was unlikely \
to proselytize for what was obviously an already super- \
ceded tradition. Meanwhile, K & M & S had withdrawn \
into complete insularity, unable and unwilling to justify \
what soon became a maudlin sentimentality. Their \
prolific efforts were not checked by this self-conscious- \
ness, but the works continue to enclose little more than \
personal, anecdotal reference. The work of Z, while \
sucject to a similar limitation, is nevertheless supple- \
mented by a raw directness of statement which invites \
attention. Z could well have made significant advances \
on the merit of his considerable, though arrested, devel- \
opment towards a clear personal statement. Unfortun- \
ately, this tendency reached an early climax and deter- \
iorated in the face of the overwhelming success of U, \
whose expansive spirit carried him much farther & much \
more rapidly towards a sImilar end. Y and F cherished a \
regard for the private voice, & pushing the far edge we \
find 0, who had these characteristics too, exaggerated & \
specialized. A retained overtones o~ exposure to R's \
work so strongly N is usually suggested as primary \
stylistic motivation. But D and J maintained that promise \
too, as U was also emerging as an undeniable force in \
that forum. Most important is acknowledgment of A's \
unorthodox & undoctrinaire synthetiks to remind us \
adroitly a most significant source for heighten'd sensibility \
was A's own considerable originality. \
\'a7 Quick, tell me the difference. among Olson, Williams & Pound. \
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ANOTHE PLUS OE CERTAIN WAS \
THAT HAVING ASKEO THE TERMS \
OF BIZ M DECIOEo TO MAKE A \
QUICK SIO FORTHEWHO\\"E DEAL \
AND SO SOON'S A MAKES THOSE \
SWEET SASHAY STEPS I N TO 0 \
THE PRONE POSITION, M NAILa \
HER, STAKING CLAIM. 11 \
So now 80 run 80 down It can't \
just take no rlak: Circuits frazzled \
frcm shock pop rush treat meant, \
managing something out 01 It. 12 \
N B A \
MY BIG MACK \
Warming up \
To fuck. \
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Forward: 120 mph \
God-damn! \
Hard buns! \
Intheverymanylntervenlngdar- Dl STANT: do_sal lande Jleryonesnlfflnl!eacbotbera ttbebole \
o N \
~CALCULATION Anyway, a bunch of us went to drink and you \
Busy, actlve Loose movement 1 I did 't ha h ha 'th \
through it. WhatP.Qintpercen- came a ong. n ve muc exc nge Wt you, \
c \
tagechangel tJw hI b b' . l l . if \
ug remem er etng partwu a y conscwus 0 you. \
And I was aware that you were a point oj focus for many \
of tJwse other people though they claimed to deny yov any \
importance. \
p R o o T E s A N \
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RATES OF ExCHAnGE; MakIj \
$13.-~. 28Pg, flow ffr.VOKrebUy \
Off Tv & \
OTh. pUBlIC ShOw off \
D \
LES 'BE IN' DAYS \'95\'95\'95 13 \
K'S HOT AND DRY. 8TRAND UP \
HIOH. N THE NEIGHBOR 0..- U. \
HDDos SN'T HERB A STEPPING \
STEP? WITH 8, THAT SKIN RAW \
MONSTER STRUGGLING TO SUR" \
VIVE HER PLAGUE. aCTH CHOMP \
IN FOR A BIT. 14 \
The .tuff it comes diract from \
N from when I just lilt. to know \
now most of the tim \
\'95\'95 15 \
Gosh, oh weI: is what I meant, \
shucks oh sure i. what I'm not. 16 \
AIN'T A &. Y SO DUTY FREE .JUST \
AS IMPORTANT PUTTINO OUT A. \
THAT BTU"f" DN THE PLATE? 17 \
Who's knew in any way \
next to 0, U ugly bastard jus' \
no zen right in there. 18 \
ThatverysamestUlcontinuingevenlng \
KKCONFloENCE \
Getting ready todo It. The \
trend seems ullward and I am \
crouched to spring. prellared. \
S S \
Trump \
D N \
My hot \
Streak \
Manages \
flash: \
Cons truction \
Plays \
T \
Immedia~: e \
On the delivery \
Cut to bargain \
In place of \
Your bet \
D \
After the deal \
arrangement \
Works \
We correct \
Current \
Eiaborate \
Continuance \
Of return \
Gain \
Of stock \
In structur'd \
All right \
Invested \
Moves \
COOL: letemjulceattheja Wlloonlletabllloldllckoiltsl obbermouth \
T H \
So that was that\'b7 I didn't think much about you. I had no \
reason to. There was nothing between us, no connection. And I \
probably never would have thought much about you if I hadn't \
seen you give one incredibly hot performance. \
N A c c E S S B \
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ACTUAL AMUSEMENTS: Trrnp.,$I.-58pg. SANS \
18PT.26lNS.x4Iwds. DEVlOPED iNNLLEcT &. \
AppLied sYNTHEsis Of diReCT PER 'ONaL .... \
XpRiANcZ,JokQ hv JdgG'd hiM QI\\, Why Hv qlm, \
fOX? If hYp had qBBl'd w' QwAljfjkajorn Of \
VwZ:shkz w' WsH of wHyz bbY, ANd ThOUGh \
JjrnPz WiF a VaRiiD &. EaiRly [clKiK vOKabUi\'b7 \
arY bRirnmig wif HUmOR, UrnqZjrnirngly hv 2 b \
zHE wORK of hay GRaD gjMlooS. VIsITS fInIsH \
o E S R E F 0 \
THIS IS. OF. SOMETHING IS \
l! OF THIS & OUT OF. SOME IS \
THIS OUT OF. SOME THING \
THAT WRITES AND SO SELF \
IS OUT OF THIS WRITING. \
THEIR'S THE RUB UH DUB \
19 \
. \'95\'95 the guy with the red \
beard and said to him, 'You \
can't be serious it's obvious \
you don't even begin to \
read D, so HOW could you \
be coming outo! him?I' 20 \
R \
ASFCDNTIN~EB","MAKEH'B NOT ONLY IN ALL OF ITSELF \
BEL", HI. ND THING BUTT INTO \
A NUIBANc\'a3.21 BUT OUT OF ALL SELF. \
ARE WE PALM DRUNK HAND \
DUG IN? MY COLD HAS LACK \
PURE QUALMS WHICH ARE & \
ALSO ANY ARE DUG PURE & \
DRUNK IN HAND. NOW WHO \
WERE MERE & MORE PURE? \
Onewbo1eJollimonthfurthor.long SII \
BLIMA. T l!D; shltltIcaresurelkno wi dontwan treclprocal re!>ponsl /)IIlty \
880REDOM When you came on stage, you were very sullen. Your eyes \
~~~:\'a3~ku~:fteb~~~e~fl~~~~IX were small, hal/-closed, and you slouched in the chair. You were \
show some RETURN .\'95.\'95..\'95.... ..\'95 dressed well -in a sportscoat -very Ivy League. But your posture \
was terribw, and your features almost too classical, your nose too \
arched, your mouth too fine. \
E M A 13 E WAN \
SPOON BRED; \
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.. $26.-, 38PG. 13X \
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PROMXX CZ JZZ & MZJCK 1$ COM- \
PQSD BY HRMED!CK CMZ!DRY \
J!ON \
T N E c c G \
THE WOMAN WHO LIKED TO LICK \
F In the wet pants of animals resides \
N \
Yeah, I know. B1..t so what? 22 \
because of his line, which he the fragile whine of constant fear. Sucking, \
gets from \'95\'95 but, J, Id's all an \
act 01' light drip. 23 continual complaint answered in a quilted \
pink robe. It was wrapped around, held' \
tight the whole time. That elaborate defense \
is screaming to be ripped into advantage. \
Rlghtlmmed\\a~lyTbenandTh.re EXCITED; Plndsometblngyoulustml6btllkebunsmelJsllOodum? \
. .INTEREST But when you got up to speak It became apparent how artlcu- \
~?tt\'b7ii:\'b7\'a5t~t~~i~fgs1!!!!~!~!~~ late those features could be In motion, and how centered you \
RELEASE. A definite gain \
...... were behind your own energy. And you were good, really good. \
As much as anybody was doing it, you were doing it. It was a \
heavy hit, and I went for it. \
A T T E N T C N \
D.AMP SHEETS;. The woman Who Lik'd To \
Lick; $15.--,,29Pg .. 7LN s.X4 7wds. PrsonaL, Too \
Smrt TO bESEnTUhMEtaL"bUt StILL"Socau- \
tionS .As to bE pRECiouS ... Qu.AGMIR Uv JurI- \
pruDNcz DjM w' 'DncAsoM & MoNUmNTL PRG- \
mUhDSm PossZslv PROUncz Ov THjK vIsOm FR \
HAbjt OF PrVLDJG by PROpRDy. FZz by Qundry \
If QwK, Wd fIX bY mvIng dOgg'd XIGNc\'a5 ..... \
G \
BUD I WON'T MIND FUR A \
COUPLE UV REASONS: IN \
THE~RSTPLACEISLONG \
& READ, WELL' SILKY, TH' \
SECOND MORE SOPHT'- \
MORE oPEN, THIRD AND \
LAST BE LEAVE THAT END \
KNOT SPLIT BUT TENDED' \
GROOMED & SO. LET P \
OUTGROW HER POODLE \
DANCING STAGE THAT'S \
SO OFF-CENTER. WEALL \
NOW HOW FERTILE THAT \
FI ELD. 24 \
While waiting lor Z to .trut his, \
D indulged In the attention 01 L \
who was very serious. always, \
eager to associate with as II that'd \
obtain what he was assuming in \
that yielding posture. D knew the \
kid was full alit but knew too his \
own l.D. was not apart Irom Its \
snapshot photo. 25 \
T o N w \
H A T s \
& PLANE FACED \
Is this the story Of my \
lover-child growing \
Pace by careful pace? \
What lOOked around \
was not un-noted. \
I nthelangorouslatCllumm rdayofoilowing C V 1(IOV \
S: LUbl telnltsoma sparktntbewel Lal!ediLal'oroit hec bce~'e \
The )lOMENT: cO~l!'i~i'es~o~: After that, I began to have thoughts about you \
viction. TOT~LITY. Jes' warch all the time I thought about how I could meet up with \
thet krazy LIL' bugger MOVIN \'95 \
you, where you might be, how I could stop by the store. \
It was a definite chemical, physical take that I had had. \
T A L s o \
s E R v E \
SOFT SWEET RISING; \
AND;$15.-38p.,6\'a3x22?L. \
$IXY prsOnAl UB\}Ckx, \
ZQrniSH Vibe,mKz sHY \
buzig B \
fIN,REGUR,OV: \
COMMOm wRK . . . I I \
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~OH LET ME TAKE ITI' WHO ELS'E \
COULO THAT BE aUT A, DEMON\'b7 \
STRATIVE IN HER ATTENTION \
SEEKING PLOY OF' SUCH ENTHU \
SIASM. SHE COULD HAVE IT DID \
HAVE WHAT SHE NEED TO WANT \
IT, REALLY. 26 \
MAKE ME A PRESENT OF \
YOU,oh give me back some 0 \
your swe.t disdain, Z was whis- \
pering under his breath, tappin' \
his feet to some Tune !mowln' IT \
ALL BLONE. 27 He's goT in so \
folksy and mellow since moving \
'r \
0 The counTry. 28 \
T CHATS WITH HIS ARMS X'D, \
ALOOFAND .JUOG&MENTAL- \
TITEA66 PRICK. 29 \
A ndthrougblangorouB3oftsummernlgbtl \
\'b7\'b7.\'b7\'b7PHYSICCKKALITY \
Continuance \'95\'95\'95\'95 MORE of .\'95. \
EVERYTHING. Yessirreeeeee! \
Lookkit thet baby &0 IrO gOGO! \
U C C E o s o U \
~ ~ 'I ue4 ~ ~t taut att tie Ume (6 d4t \
'I'""a~fd9dJ. &~ 'I~'tt)d~ \
'lied tMt4f. 1fI~ 'lied ,~ 'I ~t Ute("~,,t \
;4"et 1 e4t & ~ au a~. StJ 'I f\}"eu \
?I~u, a (tJt tJj 4e~ HUU! ~ me ~ ~eu tJj tha \
~i4t~adi~. \
;4~"9 ~'1Je U \'abde ~9 up d4t ~ thue"" \
~4fPuaet. \
SEN \
SVAL: boyohboyl sltllettlnllJul \
cy \
If wetwa/tInlllf wantIIIl!1f ll'onder/IJIl \
And then I began to have dreams about you. Very intense, \
erotic dreams. And of course, they stemmed mainly from my own \
desire, wanting to have some reason, some motivation to un-subli- \
mate itself. And I realized that nothing much was going to happen \
unless I made it happen. \
s A s o B T A N \
T \
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LOnG wAy ALL. Y lIoT wID SOMg e ~ ~ \
STAnding. 30 \
WHICH OFYOU IS GOING ~l .. .. I \
~g.~~~~SI~ !l:;l~CA\\~~31 e llSSllttt Ittf~t'1t~tl1t~ \'a5:cfa s \
Qlll fh~ lastiitillUS ht'llfh~r \
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On ... \
alniceolearsallmornlnK AN X' OV \
S: buTw ben 011 W \
II \
enO II sO OnO IIpLEasE Oil \
IIOnEys W \
l!ETcO mEO n \
............... ACQQQQTION I was working on a book at the tIme, so I decided to \
Anotheroneofthose::::::STUFF d .+c if h I k l'k \
comin' in al~ the Til!le ....... Jes' sen you some p't'OO,s 0 t e P%es. new you t t:.d to \
want to walt and 8!t a sense of k hat . & I dId . \
the possible Ol'TIONS............. now w was gotng on gu't'e was mng some- \
thing so r d send you the poems. \
N M E c H A N \
c \
s \
31~QI1Jl1t~([l1l~~: ltm~ ill lt~r *1 \
Jlp!1+ 5~!9itt~s+t t:i~uk!tts ~r!Ji1t~ \
fr mt!~fintl f\'a5m~r, m' '1lt~~ \
JlIt~~kk, flllf fltatt~m ~1l3J~; \
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&, !J~s ha~ ~lh+ ~lff @:tt~ 3Wt' 3~ \
~cti1.: J:Ilacti~ f3Stt f1ltrcti lr~~+ \
1 \
CLllSS. BACKGROUND. 32 \
IT COMES FROM NEED: \
5 IS STARVING. & ALWAYS \
HAS BEEN. W MAKING A \
BIDTO CASH IN ON THE \
PREDICAMENT; ICTATE \
IT AS A CONDITION FOR \
THE PRODUCTION OF"ART \
33 \
How Cozy that grunting grand \
n grant in \'95 did E get the panel \
appointment. duo j \'95\'95 vibin' on \
out so toasty warm cau \
\'95\'95 they. \
both such gentlemen ain't \
neither of em gonna cop to \
wanting a CONTRACT. 34 \
ILLBORN BRATB ARE BEAT \
BACK SOLID. 3S \
That's pop that PULP. 36 \
K s N B E N \
INVENT \
This thing is defined by lines. \
One straight decision follows \
an other. \
It moves forward through a \
series of definite conclusions. \
Points made mark the progress \
of the empirical clarification \
through distinct particulars. \
The phenomenon forms by \
evaluated terms of refereDce. \
The moves want truth only \
can't relax any act as a full \
rush flux. \
Theverynextbe.utifulafternOON SHY; sOsHYmayb\'a3THI!UrG\'a3nTacKI!GOl!sbYIUsTPASSCDTOOsVbTLy \
: .\'95\'95.\'95... ???ATTENTION The next time I saw you was at a readinq at your store' I felt \
Face to face: WHaT! Here! Has \'a3 h d d h 1\'a3 . Y "d'I \
to be The Least expecTedP\}:oAY sort 0 s yan you seeme rat er se -conSClous. ou sal , \
Bofar in This und \
... r.T.a.k.l.n.e Q'9t your pages.' I was embarrassed. 'Oh?' 'Well those poems,' \
'Yeah?' 'Well, I didn't understand 'em.' \
M A L L T H A T \
IT ALL ACTS TO FALL APART; lava \
$10 \
\'95\'95\'95 ,Z8pg.14!!zx57ww$; KONVX \
pjG; HEaVY INTELECT: VERY RES\'b7 \
daINED, A REPESSED ROMANDIC \
W$H? OR JUS AN UNJUSDIFIABLY \
EMByONIC AKADMCK? EMPHUZS \
ON PQULRIY LNGuSdk CmcRMS OF \
CmPIXjdy " jmdRZd: wyz qqwz mks \
qw~k x~u$ by Ggg$; MOqk QqW~k, \
JuZ B PO$zjDjv OF pg JOB; B bOSS'd \
by TH' biG" HvY pU$H" bOX bk. W' \
biG, QWizOv$M~X \'95\'95\'95\'95\'95 \'95 Ow! \
~177Zr  S'3fJZZ7S" SfJ1tt;,' \
120,--,31 ft9' 10""~39fA)d4 ~' \
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9~i';'1 ~m4 et,t' pTJ f/'P" ~~ \
~'1'~ fA)' fIW ~te~d-?1t1l (J.1 d~ \
~~~ 7() /ldTJ1e/l1tltfJ?1t \
6'; fl~m~1e &~)11" \
L \
Maybe they even had d \
hobby in common: LOOKIN \
for an echo: not to know, my \
nervous brother. but to know \
how to do. 41 \
NO FOR A FACT E'S \
GOT NOT G AND THAT \
FORM OR VIRTUE HAS \
NO NEC\'a3SSITY.z.INSU- \
LARITY CONSE",UENT \
LY HAS NO DISDAIN \
AS ITS sORE ASS OWN \
ALL E G HOW COULD E \
NOD RE: SPECT SOME \
RE: SENT MEANT. 42 \
TbatNlghthotaNdeOOlaNdeOOlaNdhOt \
$$8c$$$SEPARRA8TION \
NoT stuek \
... shiT. Take iT e&8Y. \
IT'll geT going again iT's jus' a \
pause AfTer ALL. noT a sLump. \
R c o M E \
B N T \
MAYBE \
IT WAS WORK \
BY THE RULES \
PERHAPS THIS PIECE \
HAD TOO MANY \
SMALL MARKINGS \
NOT BUT WERE \
FULLY PAT. \
P' XAdCD: IAdCdnOW6QIII mBA 01 NPQOrSPAC.30PwANNA W \
ANN. WANNA \
By that time, Of course, I thOught yOu were just beaUtiful. \
I had become totally fixated on you. I couldn't stop thinking about \
you. I was obsessed. I mean I had the heavy hots, right? I just \
wanted you. It wasn't rational, it wsa electrical, chemical. \
o u T E L N T \
FIND & FOUND: 20.-~ 32 \
8LY X ?O @Y CZ OVR \
GOOD AT $1 := CLT ~ ... \
CLT1V \
AYZ10N$ \
Wise she so willing to \
approach the insidiously \
inadequate signifier, with \
TOLERATION & ON. 43 \
IF ONLY THE MOMENT \
HE FELTTENDERLY \
ALONG THE SPINE OF \
THE WEE LIL BEAST \
ITS PIG EYES POKE IN \
PURE 'N TENSION \
CUZ IT'S DE.LIBERATE \
& THAT'S LIKE KNOW\'b7 \
L'EDGE, WOULD HAVE \
LASTED FOREVER. 44 \
INaweekOrtwO \'95\'95 \
D.lS$TAMMMMMMMNCE \
.SOMETHING in This rl!J)id se\'b7 \
quence ... OTHER acT ,viT'y OUT \
On some new parT of The board. \
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H E c \
~Sf) 5;4'1,4 \
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1It, ~4 ~ tie de ~e, \
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IMPATIENT: maybethenextspotIsnlffhasmoreinterestmaybemaybe \
T R \
I wanted to know what your personal trip was like. So I asked \
around about you. It seemed that you were quite open to women, \
that you were actually a romantic -you'd had many affairs but you \
were out for Love. So you were looking around for someone. \
E 5 T H E R E c E \
A \
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PUS? fJlIz;e 'at8A7 : ;ez'Z), l~fJ'N' SfJ'1'p. \
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QUELLING THISTs, $6.--"33pp,,FAYK \
flASy ooffc'D JOK, G(Ez Off BoomiNG \
ffiXASION & \
OBjcx QUA$I-QUALIFY \
zLY fire BCk Of qUEEzzl bLOCK & jlV \
QUICK CUTS Or \'95.\'95 \
Out of SOurce; bb \
he; $2 ..... 27pg.JEEz \
HOw .. VErY, CLEVR .. \
dy fyxng,spRflcaL \
qlms,hv BA$qng, \
SO. jPcjsjk Bnx,~, \
NEvR Is GvNG WOR. \
PlAY: SNek flndz ... \
MaXJMM mANNrZ! \
Q \
Brag just ALL OF' D' WAy III HIS \
SOUL BACK &; BACK. FOR WHA'l' \
&; WAS GAIN. SOCK ORaLLy? 56 \
P CAN"T BE HOPINO TO PARLEY \
THAT .NTO A PROf"ITABL\'a3 ENTER \
PRISE. SURE IT'S IN HER OPPOR- \
TUNE NATURE 00 USE ANY EDDE \
00 TURN ON; ON DA MAKE ALL 0 \
DA DIME: MAKE MORE CHAND\'a3: \
MORE DFEM. S7 \
IT's NOT AND HAS NEVER \
BEEN AND NEVER EVER \
WILL BE ENOUGH. 58 \
CLAIM CAN BRING FORWARD \
MORE COURAGE & NO BLAME \
IN PRIME RANGE OF PURE IN\'b7 \
GENUOUS NAME: WHELPING \
BUYS MRMA HER PUP: PROOF 0 \
VALUE LAIN IN LAME, Bli Nd pfl.IN \
59 \
A o R M B u \
DOWN FROM THE N()RTH \
Trying very hard \
the strong little man held \
the boat with both hands \
The craft was restless \
on the waters' surface. \
My step was balanced \
as we boarded, \
My grip firm, sure. \
My shadow rippled on water. \
T \
OOmemuchadvaNcedmOmENT RESTLESS; tonllUeQuickandhotonepassoverthelipsleavethemmoist \
FRUU~USTRA ... TIOOON I was ecstatic, of course, and so high-I knew you were giving \
lC!fs~n~fv~~rTPSa~~~~r~-t~r& a reading later that week and that we'd have a chance to talk and \
possibLy dEcEpTivE indicaTor hang out, which we did. A bunch of folks spent a long time after \
the reading. arguing, discussing, I felt very visible, which is what \
I wanted. \
E R N A L v A L u \
T \
HARD U)OKING; D.f.t.n.;~24.--,49Pp ..... \
fill:ll) LOGjck"diFYZ ~J, EffECIV JmB \
Ov fix'd Jl~ZDIC, Vi,7iffiZ & fiXDZ fAvR. \
R \
NOW THAT YOU ARE NO \
L.oNGER IN A SODASPEAK \
VOL.VECI WITH INGESTING \
SL.UDGE IN MASSIVE \
DOZES YER GUT RoT SIS \
DUMB CAN COME CL.EAN. \
OR IS YER MoL.DYCRE- \
VICE TOO CAKEoWITH 01.' \
CREAM FOR NEW CUL.TUR \
T' GRAB ON OR DIG IN, 60 \
The strength of tho mar. ... \
and the rigid tension of those \
explicitly articulated muscles \
of his jaw \'95.\'95 played into a \
tightness ... around the aper- \
ture. 61 \
EvENINggOEs,crOwsdlzarrelyfull \
ANT1CIPAT10000000N \
High again and rEaLLl' GoinG. \
WliaT wAnTa noTicE! Gamb in \
on ThE Long-rAngE PAYOFF. \
H R o u H T H \
ON&ON \
THIS IS BEING WRIT- \
TEN AS I WRITE IT. \
PART BY CAREFUL \
WORD A COMPOSED \
PASSAGE MAY \
MANUALLY EVOLVE. \
HYPED -UP: beadslittledropletsthatiormintheimmediatevicinityandwaitontheedees \
I wanted attention, wanted yOu to notice me. \
Someone suggested Qoing dancing. It was very collective: \
the energy, the inv~tation. But I didn't go. I didn't want \
to be casual and available. I knew you knew by that I was \
interested. I wanted the next move to come jirom you. 1 \
wanted the satisfaction of having you agress towards me, \
express some definite interest. \
s N E E s T o \
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OF DAYS: ON & ON: $4.-~33PG. \
POSLT!VLY HZ COND!MUL \
 ?HX.1F HUGJ QK$HOK$X @.M \
ATCVLY AT ULT. F@'Z.~ JOY? \
s \
COME PLEADING OUT. \
THEIR WIT SUM WAY \
OF MAKING SIP ORA- \
TION OFTHOROUGH \
SORTS,.! PARTICULAR- \
LYACCuRD 1M DO FOR \
WORSHIP OF. 62 \
HE couLd HAVE KEPT Z from \
OBTAINING THE TITLE onLy \
WANNED SOME WONDER- \
FUL PLEASURE \'95\'95\'95 of SEE\'b7 \
ING A GENNLEMAN MIRED \
IN GARBAGE. 63 \
TlInEpaaaEBwithOutmueh \
"'CONCEEESS.l0N;;;:;;,. \
UnrEsoLvEd AnnoyAncE nAG. \
AT ThE bAck of mJ hEAd: hArd \
To gAugE ThE SECURITY. , \
E v e: L o p M \'a3 N T o \
1fI~ 1~4-~1t~oed~~ \
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1 pdt tue 4- ~ Ud ~ 4-(1e(J44 tt~ \
1fIw 4- ~ t4e ~ pa4It Ue \
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FLIRTATIOU s: gobyoncea(luickpaBBonelightbrushsomesoitrapidtouch \
Well, nothing happened, you never called me. I didn't hap- \
pen into you, and I let the obsession lapse. But then another oppor- \
tunity to see you presented itself. There was going to be an all day \
picnic, followed by a big party. I thought it would be fun to hang \
out all day in the sun, get high, \
E o E N o s o \
1 EetJ LLEe7101tS/ 9"'1,0,:17,--/ \
35~, 'led-(E S1tm7;4~ U7 ~:I'e?1t \
'lj"X ~'1 1'1t01tt) (,q.' 7i m~(!1tt, \
Ie EflJ U.e 1/, \
T \
TITLE: has some relation \
due posit on. 64 \
YEAH' SDANO OIOVA REALIZE \
WHY Z WANNEO 10 so SAD? WHY \
A PcSSISLE VICOORY OVER W \
WOULO CARRY SO MUD SIGNI,.I- \
CANCE? DCYOU REALIZE A BIG \
SCENE WAS PLAV'O WIN O'S KID \
WUZ BCRN7Z WUZ AWF'ULL.V \
JALQUS.6S \
Q is here now and demands \
constan t RTIENTION for her \
rap. NATURALLY no SHORT \
AGE of friends or lovers is \
plaguing ThaT old farT. 66 \
p R o \
c E 5 \
SUMMARilY: fORMAL \
Proposed: \
Invert stasis \
Of stated position \
reverts to causitive \
Modal condition: \
Relative \
To a \
Value of \
Incipient power. \
ArarEEarlyAp"ilwEEkEndArrivE8 ATTENTIVE: finefinechangeinthechemicalinclinationtowardmoreiorward \
s \
COONCr::NTR~TTT100N SO I went- & sure enou~h one of the first people to \
Ah Es ThiS A Am, ThE LeT- , \
Td onE, hErf ALrEAdy: SO, show up was you. I preten ed not to see you, but you drove \
ThAT vALuE is hoLding fixED. & l d h . d 'H' h \
up ~n your auto eane out t e w~n ow - ~, ow ya \
doing?' You called and waved. 'Oh, hi,' I said, real SU1"- \
prised, sort oj nonchalant. \
T H A T T H E v \
T \
A \
CHOSEN ZONEs; summary; $16.--, \
34pg. fw Phx eN B ObJCKX, ZQR \
WVz en B dry ~ meh wrz, mnnu- \
mum Che H$ gEOmeTrjk funkjOn \
HE B T R ENG T H \
YOU'RE GONNA LIKE MUCH \
\} \
MORE WHEN YOU'RE IN \
t~~],q~[\{fi~f.t!I~ I decided to just go after it. \
C is everywhere after hou,"s They were off the wall & \
cute IiI why.o.y n that's \
naturelment a cost account \
B black in too cool um to \
cOme PLACATE THE pick \
::::; !~"AAc".L"~".'~ not even just a little bit willing. \
AS W'AI.I. MY MYWARM \
"!.i,g~~::':~p~pF!l:~ Fucking stayed. Shoved up tight. \
DROP DIM SPOIL FOR WRy DID \
gro:'~kli!~~~~70G. SPRIG FOR I pushed on the'I-r tI-ts, \
WELL, Lie dub my life, U was \
in kind due lean of her Too \
s~~!~;:Ef!~*~1;~:i SCreamI-ng\'b7. go right on down \
' '. \
OF? Y nOd budging fOrm cer- \
Tain reply in mediaTe nega- \
Ti%,OOBAD. 71 You need rewards, suck for 'em! \
Or do your work, \
Say something on mark, cause \
so much crap is like nuthin \
at all, man. \
WhaTalOvElylOvElyday ATTRACTED: movingincloserthespa.cebetweenourlegsclosingina.littlemore \
AVAILLLLABBBBILLITY Y k d & t t lk 'th T.t d\'b7l:\'b7t l' fl' ta \
MA bE Th' k iT's AbouT OU par e came 0 a WI me . .1, was eJ"n~ e Y ~n a ~r - \
TI~E fo~ somEiCing -THIS1, tious manner -side-long glances. We smoked a joint together & there \
Now, THEm's DIVluENDS!!!!. was real energy passing with it-in the contact of our hands. \
L o " T C N o ,.. \
DEEP PROBING; yr meh more \
when yr in; $19.--,34pp. qizzjkl \
fex affiRM Ivl of vry firm Prso- \
Nal $DADmendz whieh seRv dO \
ELuCidAD XPRINZ. Smx e Qbbl \
b VIVID PBLjk JjB; AGGREsz\'b7v \
JJMPG sffOKAdz. VjejOs skOffz \
B fiRM fib OF WAy MCH Jfffi \
FOrNICKASOn qnCH f1V. OF $X; \
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v \
RAP MY BAIL BACK CUZ \
I MUZWARM UPWIF ""'0& \
,JuS KILL F,X oR NoD \
MIND,72 \
Deep dreamer wuz he my boy \
blew idle in quick. We began. \
Bar gain grOws us OuT. Sad sO \
bad Our parTing. 73 \
PEcuiiar paceychargEdupdaytlmE \
&&&.DDDDDDISPLAYY .. \
Good dAy Too, hoT\'b7 mELING \
rEAL EnERgizEd, opEn. Now \
sTART rEALLy RoLLin' On IN \
5 T H E c \
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TURNED\'b7 ON: rubbinglightlythighsohiustsogentlystaticelectricchargeiumpa \
N \
So then aU afternoon I was aware of you a: you of \
me, too, I felt. I knew where you were, who yon were. \
We even sat on the same blanket for awhile, and it was a \
very long, slow, almost tantilizing kind oj come-on -build- \
ing up the tension, the anticipation. . . \
p E R 5 o \
N L \
v \
o E \
W \
DRAG off HER such morbid Aid \
MAKES MEAGRE PENSION. \
such LOn~LOngl\'b7umps mAy not \
HnALL;v AL GN. ISM's in \
form ALL rip off SCANDAL 1 so \
is must mulch for bindine in & \
BLANK ALL BLANDl HOW \
COULD PURPOSING lAM ALL \
WORRY HONORl 74 \
If HE WHERE'S EM ANY \
TIED OR THERE'S LIKE \
TO BE DAMAGE. 75 \
EvEgallOporapidl yapaeEummm \
PPPERSEV VVERAN C EE. \
MighT As wELL \'95\'95 jEsus, SO ... \
AvAiLAbLE. Too EAs;rlll ALL \
THESE grEAT FREEBIEEES. \
c T a N c A R R \
ONE OF THE BIGGIES! \
I'm one of them. I know all of them \
& \
I call them all by their first names: \
Al &Bob & \
Chuck & \
Dickie & \
Earl. \
I'm so far fucking in there. \
RESOL UTE: gottagettoitthi.timnclosesoclosetakemetakemehandinhandandhand \
When I got to the party you were already there. You came up \
to me almost immediately and asked me to dance. I said sure -I \
mean it had only been my dream for six months -that I would be able \
to dance with you. We danced a lot together -and a lot with other \
people too. But the connection was very strong -across the room \
looks, and dancing more and more. \
... T T y a N \
E \
TABLE SCRAPS;One of Th Biggies;$23.--,39p .. \
dry"chP WlzDOM fr sQUNcz Fx'D by INJuR- \
ous FRCTON. IF JRGON KNOCKS Why hV \
KrZY K!x By MjOR WR!TrZ Djvjzd OBvIOUZ \
CONQWzd by V!GORUS ZubjckX? NAME drop- \
ping AS REFErENCE"PRETENScIOUs assum- \
psion Of sUch kNOwldg havnG sum vowLu. \
D H \
R o u \
x \
~ u\'abt lUI- 4It tit' u.e \
'I dlCle' e ~4I14It~, \
Babies yOu guys jusT wanT A \
GOOD TIME And yOu DON'T \
TAKE NO GODDAMN FUCK efot to 4ettte 41-td till tit' 4UIe \
.,4u.. ud 44Iut, \
IN RESPONSIBILITY, AS IF \
THERE'S RNY MATTER OF \
PRIORITIES, 76 \
POOR S WAS DRAt3GIN THIS \
MORNINWHENV MADEAB.G \
ENTRANCEW' E YOLLOWING \
ALONG SOMESMALLWAY \
BACKliT COULD MAP A BLOW \
PLOY FOR SUM MIN .. UP NEW \
RIGIO PR VILEOGING, 77 \
CrEEpThEomallsm&llbOurs \
CONFRRONTTTAT'TION \
Too much, Too quick\'b7 wh1'1 For \
whaT REASONH ThE boTTom \
)lighT FaLL righT ouT of This! \
~u4t"/l-(Q4'UH, \
/lUI't 'I foe4t U- \
1()tdedi \
AGGRESSIVE: pushitnowreallypushhardagainstthesolidmuscledllankyourwarmth \
So when you split I went out wiTh you and asked you to give me \
a ride. I felt very shy about it but lfelt like I J'ust wanted to play it \
out -be totally aggres.crive and let you respond. lfelt very confident, \
it had been a high day. So you drove me home, stopped the car, and \
turned off the engine. \
'Can I kiss you?' I asked. 'Well, why would you want to?' \
So I blurted out the story of my obsession with you, my attraction to \
you. You laughed, both flattered and patronizing. \
B o \
H T T H \
~&AL ?lt01t&1I: ?4~(:'1()#--,29ft9# \
~'Q.1t;em ~' &m1l9/ p",1t'7 E~PtJ4,Ue \
~11'~ VXIZ) ~;e~() ~# e~p pI \
Q. \
y \
BY AND LARGE IT WAS A \
GOOD GROUP: EXIGEN- \
CIES NOTWITHSTANDING, \
THE POSITION W TRIED TO \
MAINTAIN WITHIN SUCH A \
CIRCLE WOULD NEVER BE \
RECONCILED THROUGH A \
PERMAN END ATTACH. \
MENT, WHICH HE VERY \
MUCH DESIRED. 78 \
WARPAS CRAP PRICK PIG \
RARE Be BIG. 79 \
L L y \
c o N \
DAMN PRICKS! \
My wretched life! \
I can't resist 'em \
Hard, brutal: \
Persistence! \
s c o u \
QUEER AZ F may Seem. WaS aN \
opeN Wave bruNq '1m IN FOCUaSO \
DUMB 15 FORM OR ILL \
LIMP & GRIM WILL'D. \
WILD. BI \
CRflVING REAL GOODS \
AND SLAKING EVERY IM- \
AGINABLE LACK BY BAD \
MANNERS, 82 \
MILO ANC MASK 0 IN aOING \
FORWARD. IS MY SLIP VISIBLY \
LONG &. IN FROM AN DNLY l"N\'b7 \
CQOL PLAY. 83 \
It's costing me my self-respect \
But shit if I can find a way \
To get on outside of 'em. \
AbOuTlhOurlatEr;cOOLair DISAPPOINTED: theswellingde8iresubsideswithouttheadequaterelease \
cCCCCCCONFFuS!oN? I fell condescending. after all I was only attracted to \
So This is iT hAzArds of THE I d 'd' h' k ' 'l" II \
profEssion! shouLd bE AbLE To YOU. ~ n t t ~n you were very st~mu at~ng ~nte ectu- \
prEdicT A TrEnd prETTy Boon. l'l S find h ld' b k '\{;: h ' \
a y. 0 to you 0 ~ng ac ,act~ng Jrom suc conce~t \
amazed me. Were you that stupid. that self-centered? I \
placed my arms around You, and pushed the old hot lips \
on You. \
R o u \
G H \
E x T R \
N \
GLOVELESS LOVE; da-~;11q. \
BI.x??W HoW PRZffillffil \
(EbJX hv fH~hI)Y Nl~l\{RZZiz\'ad \
Tik UNION & EROz hv JU$rr \
EX.finE fH(E. \
z \
BECAUSE SHE's GOING \
TO HAVE SUCH A \
BACKLOG OF REFER\'b7 \
ENCE TO SUPPORT HER \
WORK NO MATTER \
WHAT THE ACTUAL \
WORK IS. 84 \
BEST Lid All TypE a WriTER \
MonEy Can't Buy. 85 \
so MUCH STUPID VANITY \
\'95 \'95\'95 ANO M,NO NOT LEAST CF" \
ALL. BG \
I \
s A C T v T y \
- \
i.e. THERE'S NO 'I' KNOW \
It's just not going to happen, \
That's all. \
The hero in the story, \
hero 01 the story, \
Isn't going to put out: Is all \
For love, meaning lord knows ... \
In secure advance \
01 quasi-realized, \
Much applauded, will. \
AvEryfEwmOvESlaTERioaLL FINI: justlefthighandbarelydampnotevergottowetalasadreadfullackisall \
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CONCLUUUSSSI.ONNN YOU 't t i' t th . \'b7t.r. l't \
AnoThEr confirmaTION of ThE weren 00 respons ve -JUS e reqU7,S1, e ,orma t y, no \
old EKO. Hm ...\'95. ALLI cAn sAy personality, no passion, no recognition of personality yours Or mine \
IS KEEp 'EM COMIN' on & on J: t l't leo h l' '. . \
US a t t more t an po tteness, not much. So that seemed like \
enough -not much point in pursuing it -right? \
A L o \
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OrdinAry iNTEGRAT!ON OF RAw Ex- \
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rotten ThaT iniTial FaTEful FacE \
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reading D ga I 'e in sulky spiri---' \
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tho r.alhtWrI \'95\'95 eN AccOU;nt \
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pUbl~Sh;d \
bY Z; 'SO-CALLED NoTES'.- \
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" L.G.NDARY FrNd~~Nv":RNI3:D' \
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AEHRRAID A \
SITITAPEH B \
GNINOISIOP DOOF C \
TUOG D \
ENIARGIM E \
MELBORP SUNIS F \
NRUBTRAEH G \
TEEFTALF H \
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He was big, red-haired. with a bushy beard-good natured &: amiable with an over- \
extended chivalry-to cover a shyness, lack of real experience or confidence. \
A shrewd old bugger, playinlt infantile from his sense of the absurd-enormous bushy \
eyebrows &: grizzled beard-intense eyes full of humor. \
Sliltht. intense. very confident. the result of breeding-she came of family and knew it \
mattered. \
Nebbishy little guy. tiny buns. small &: shy with a high voice-sweet actually;but timid \
and oversensitive. \
She was a big. brassy &: blonde. big-busted. and big-boned, really a magnfficent \
woman-beautiful if not profound. \
Plain. heavyset and as Itrounded as a tractor-she wore outrageous clothes. insisting on \
on her rilthts regardless of her ability. \
Our indian mystic-wore long braids. had dark skin. wore a large scarab and carried a \
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very monotone-deadly. \
This old drunkard still played girly Itirly-had a pretty face all puffy and debauohed. \
Very nice looking. very soft. but his jaw was very small-his bones fine. and the \
weakness. the slightness. played out in a need to be liked. \
A very pretty girl. childlike-she wore her hair in-jesus-riabons-spoke softly-they all \
leaned forward to listen. \
He was remarkably fit. his hair was totally white &: tightly curled. but his skin was \
tight. clean shaven-he ran ten miles a day. \
Composed, elegant &: dignified-the imalte of young motherhood. she was blonde. smooth \
&: graceful. \
Very tan. looked so good -almost plastic-with a model's body-California girl-lots of \
silver jewelry. \
Incredibly strong woman-used to lots of outside work-she was getting old like some \
farm lady. \
Completely drab lookinlt-medium brown all over-the least interesting looking human \
being imaginable-almost featureless. \
Skinny girl. an ex junkie. now a methadone freak-she was constantly ill. ate nothing \
bnt junk food-pathetic. \
The closest thing to glitter rock-his tight pants always velvet. well-cut styled hair &: \
quick little body. \
Tall. dark and very intense-with curlinlt hair and semetic.ieatures-terribly stoop \
shouldered-he always talked hard and fast. \
Dumpy girl. alway. trying real hard-she wore her clothes too tight &: was uncomfort- \
ably self-conscious in them. \
His beard was always trimmed perfectly. he was small. in jeans and sandals. indian \
shirts. balding on top-so hip. \
A beautiful black woman. flamboyantly dressed, she was a dancer. professional when \
younlter and kept the traininlt as style. \
The little sexPot-voloptuous and oheerful. indulgent &: sensual-always falling out of \
her clothes. licking her lips. \
Very Ivy league. greying prematurely and into the distinction it lent him-good family, \
good education. &: eood prospeots. nice inheritance-poor fellow. \
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