Analysis of Diana Hamilton's Dreams

In Alejandro Miguel Justino Crawford's Diana Hamilton's Dreams, Diana is trying to recall her dreams once she wakes up and within the first few minutes of the video I had noticed that the video seems to have a dark tone to it. Diana recalling her dreams wasn't just meaningless. She seems to be trying to sort out her everyday thoughts and feelings that are now becoming included in her dreams. She mentions in the video that she was traveling with her high school friends who she no longer talks to and says, "they had so much more stuff than me...they had big doll houses full of candy and liquor" (Crawford). I feel like she may not be happy with herself and that she feels like she isn't from this world based on the fact that her dreams seem to be about issues that concern one's identity. It has been known for while that our worries often do tend to somehow be included in our dreams. And Diana seems to have worries about not fitting in; in other words, she feels lost like so many other young people. So when Diana records herself, it appears to be her own way of figuring out her true identity. We even see a shape of a nose in the video, so she is most likely seeing her reflection through the screen. As she sees her reflection, she may be trying to accept the person she is, which may be someone who doesn't have much or isn't anyone special in her opinion. However, we can conclude that she is having a difficult time finding herself because toward the end of the video she speaks about how she was trapped and about how she wasn't sure if it was a nightmare or not (Crawford). In the end, she is still trapped in her own mind like she was in the beginning where she repeated the same the words "trapped" and "nightmare".